I Want My Mom Again

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There is always just something we all want in our life.  We may want more time, more money, more energy.  Maybe you want another chance to do something over again so you could do it just a little differently.  I am no different from anyone else in this world and I’ve thought about this quite a bit over the last few days.  It’s a hard thing to determine sometimes because all those things are very relevant in today’s society.  I believe that everyone will agree that more hours in the day to get things done, more energy to get those things accomplished and more money to accomplish said things would be greatly useful.  But did you ever stop to really think , how would those things really improve your life? I think we would still be in the same predicament we are now because we would just find more things to fill up the time with, spend the money on and the extra energy would be depleted because of it.

croagh patrick with sheepBecause of this, I think if I had anything, I  would choose something specific.  If only I had another year with my mom.  I miss her so much.  I know that perhaps other people may ask why another year, why not just a day or why not 10 more years. Well, to be honest, I would be happy to have my mom for any length of time, but another year knowing that she could be completely healthy would give us enough time to spend each and every day together doing things together.  We could travel to Ireland to see family.  We could spend those days laughing and walking and chatting.  I could be writing all of her stories down and taking pictures of all the places she knew and know the places from her perspective.

We could travel to France.  Neither of us have ever been there.  I would love to go there with my mom and my middle daughter, who actually speaks French really well.  I know my older daughter would enjoy going with us too.  What a joy for us to spend a couple weeks in France, all of us girls, eating our way through the French countryside!

loveHow much fun it would be to spend a week with mom’s brother and his family in New York. They are fabulous and so much fun.  I haven’t seen them in so many years and I miss them tremendously.  My uncle is the last of mom’s siblings still living and the two of them were always thick as thieves.  So many stories mom had of how my uncle would even do her chores so she could study.  Never was there a better brother she told me.

We would travel where mom wanted to go, to places we’ve been and places she wanted to see.  It would be a great adventure.  When we weren’t on a magical adventure, we would have many cups of tea and ham sandwiches.  Mom would insist on cooking some of her killer awesome dinners and I know we would have to go out to eat at some really good restaurants, too!   No matter what my mom ate, and she could eat, she always maintained her stylish, slim, athletic figure, unlike me.

Even if we didn’t have all those adventures like I imagine we would, I know I would spend my time with her, especially knowing that I only had her for one last year before having to say goodbye, again.  I would try to gather as much knowledge from her as my tiny mind could possibly hold.  I would relish every single moment and treasure each touch of the hand, each hug.  I just really, really miss her.  The pain isn’t as bad as it was in the beginning, but it’s still there, always present, just not as raw as before.  So if I had one wish for anything in the world, I would tell you this…if only I had another year with my mom, I would treasure each moment and write every memory down and take so many pictures.  I would make each day count. Most of all, I would tell her I love her every day and hold her in my embrace just to remember her more.

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This has been written as part of Finish the Sentence Friday.  This week I am co-hosting with the ever fabulous, Kristi of http://www.FindingNinee.com fame! Please check out the other writers as they finish the sentence this week which is “If I only had…” Thanks for reading!

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27 thoughts on “I Want My Mom Again

  1. Wow. this is such a beautiful post! Really enjoyed reading it …. while i was tearing up :/ Honestly, your last paragraph got to me the most… made me realize I don’t appreciate my mother as much as I should while I can…

    Thank you for sharing, God bless . xx

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  2. Your mother sounds like a lovely person – I’m sorry you can’t have that year with her. You’ve reminded me to cherish the relationships I have in my life – thank you!

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  3. Oh I so wish I were able to grant you that year with your mom. You make me want to book a trip to see everybody in my family (none are nearby). Thank you for a beautiful post and for co-hosing with me this week. I love the sentence you chose!

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  4. Oh, this breaks my heart. The grieving just sort of goes on and on doesn’t it? I’m sorry for your loss. These images of what you would do if she were here are beautiful and a gift to yourself, although it probably doesn’t feel like one. My own mom is nearing the end of a 30-year battle with Parkinson’s, and I’ve interviewed her and written many of her stories down, but I, too, often think “If only . . . “

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  5. Beautiful post!! You’re definitely right that even if we had all the time in the world, we would still waste all of it. You’re also right that the time we get with our families is worth cherishing because it’s so limited.

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  6. Think of all the time you DO HAVE with your loved ones who are still with you. Just know your mom is there, enjoying those memories with you. You just can’t see her, but if you relax and look for it, you can feel her presence.

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