Fall Has Arrived

It’s that time of year when school is back in full swing and the weather begins to turn cooler. It’s fall! This is one of my favorite times of year, before it gets too cold. 

I am a lover of warm weather and sunshine, but when the autumn chill hits the air, I love to snuggle under my blanket, grab my cup of coffee, and write. Watching the world around me change each day gives me new life and brings about new things to write about.

Have you ever looked at the leaves on an overcast day? The leaves changing color becoming so vibrant in the coolness of dusk or more vibrant still when it rains softly.  What a beauty to behold!

Fall also brings about Halloween which in our house means festivities and decorations. I used to go all out and then life got in the way. Well my friends, Pinterest and I have become good friends and I have plans for this year! We even hope to have one of our parties since my biggest Halloween fan, my 15 year old, will have practice for a show on Halloween itself. Let the good times roll.

Another thing I’ve always loved about fall is the food. Comfort food. Chili and cornbread. I make the best cornbread. It’s sweet and tastes like heaven. Caramel apples, fruit cobblers, bread puddings. And there’s football and my favorite sport, hockey! God bless my St. Louis Blues! 

So as we begin this fall, take a moment to think about what you are grateful for. I have so much. No, ibdont have everything, but I have the most important things life has to offer. I have my health, my family and my friends. Let’s make this fall a fall to remember. 

That Elusive Sleep and Other Short Tales

Oh how I wish I could sleep like normal people. These days it just isn’t happening. Some nights are good, but this isn’t one of them. To top it off, I need the sleep. I’m headed out early in the morning with my brother and my dad to head out of town. 

We are off to a memorial service of a very special woman, my cousin’s wife who lost her battle with cancer recently. She was an exceptionally wonderful and funny person, always so full of life. She fought valiantly to say the least and will be missed by so many. 

As it is, if I were to fall asleep precisely in 3 minutes, I could get up to 4.5 hours of sleep. It’s a good thing I’m not driving, although I am a navigator since we recently were there at the same church for my sweet uncle’s funeral. My brother is driving and was out of town last time. Thank the good Lord above for GPS and Google maps!

I continue to heal these days, but my mind and heart have been rather heavy which is why I haven’t written much. It isn’t anything about my health I’m particular, just that I want so much to be completely back to my old self and I grow so impatient sometimes. There have been a few other issues that burden my heart, but they are mine alone. All I can do is pray for that matter to eventually resolve itself.

We celebrated dear Hubs’ birthday yesterday which was great. The cake that my middle 2 kids made was extraordinary! Bear was the baker and Bug was the sculptor! They even made their own marshmallow fondant! It was delicious too! I have to say, eating a cake so cute and named ‘Beau, the Otter’ is rather hard to do! 

Thursday will mark Hubs and my 10th anniversary. I’m very excited. I can’t say we have anything planned. I’m actually just glad to  not be in a hospital and to be feeling better at this point. Sure, I wish we could do something special, but all I keep thinking is the medical bills will be coming soon. Very soon. I didn’t think we would be where we are at this point in our marriage, in fact, I pictured things quite differently. What I can tell You is this, we have had our own very unique and bumpy journey to get here, but it’s proven that our love is a forever love based on the right values and morals with a foundation of faith. I wouldn’t trade this man in for anything. No one else would or could put up with the highly emotional, sometimes irrational, often overthinking, loud-mouthed, opinionated, but thoroughly lovable me. Thank you Jim from the bottom of my heart, for always supporting me No matter what! I never truly understood love until I married you.

Open Communication

images-43.jpegSo today’s word prompt is open.  After thinking about this for quite some time, I decided on open communication as my topic.  I have to tell you that this is a subject that is near and dear to my heart.  Communication is something I happen to be very good at.  I’m a blabber mouth and you will always know how I feel about something, but that is not what I’m necessarily talking about here.  The communication I’m talking about is more the kind where people can openly discuss things without fear of admonition for their views or concerns.  It’s a way of communicating.

In our house, I find that open communication is so important.  I want my kids to be able to come to me with questions, concerns or problems without fear of condemnation or reproach and that is the home I have built.  It doesn’t mean that there is no discipline.  Believe me.  There is plenty of that when it’s necessary.  When my children have questions about those sensitive subjects, you know the ones, the ones we didn’t want to ask our parents, my children come to me.  Not only do they come to me, they bring their friends.  I’ve done more sex education in my home than you can shake a stick at.  Sometimes it can make me uncomfortable, but I know it’s necessary and I know that the information is given properly and very well.  I am, after all, a registered nurse and a mom.  I give the facts and from a Catholic viewpoint which is age appropriate.

Open communication is more than that though, Thank God!  It’s being able to speak to my husband and truly talk to him.  It’s not being judged.  It’s him not being judged, which he struggles with still.  Open communication is so important for a happy home.  At least it is in my  home.  I can’t imagine feeling like I couldn’t say what was on my mind.  I don’t always say what is there, but that is usually because I’m weighing out whether it is necessary to say or not, but knowing that we can talk about things in our home is important to me.  Knowing that my children can come to me with what is on there minds, or with any questions or concerns instead of going to friends or the internet for answers is of immense importance to me.  I am so grateful for having this gift in our home and sharing it with you.  It’s not always the easiest route, especially with a very curious 9 year old boy, but I’d rather he get his answers from me than anywhere else.

Thank you!

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I am so grateful to all of you. I had my most successful day so far blogging with 117 views! Wow! I’m at a loss for words. Usually I have 40 to 60 views. My highest number previously was 95! Thank you for your continued support in my endeavor to share my heart with the world. You made this happen. Bless you for making me so happy and making Deirdre’s Daily Dose a success!

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The Long Hall

I opened the last door and saw yet another long hall.  It was a another hall of cubicles.  “What a strange building,” I thought to myself.  I continued to walk until a man in a white striped polo shirt and black pants came around the corner at the other end of the next hallway.  He stood there, just for the briefest of moments, smiled a broad, open smile at me, waved and walked up to me.  Without a word, he shook my hand, as if he knew me.  He straightened my glasses, my jacket and my shirtsleeves, then, just as quick as he appeared, he turned and disappeared the same way he came.  “How strange!” I exclaimed.  I began to feel like I was in Wonderland.  Perhaps he was the Madhatter.

I was trying to find Joe.  Where was he anyway? So far, I had been led through countless hallways leading to other hallways and now this! Seriously, this has to be the weirdest manhunt I’ve ever had the pleasure of experiencing.  Joe had better be worth this much trouble.

I met Joe at last after I followed the strange “Madhatter Man”.  I just couldn’t resist myself.  Perhaps Joe had sent him to find me.  But why then had this stranger not said a word to me?  Why had he smiled and waved and shaken my hand but not uttered even a hello?  For that matter, what was up with the whole touchy-feely thing?  That was bizarre at best. Well, Joe better have some answers because I had some questions.

“Joe, Hiya! How are you?  I had a hell of a time trying to find you in this maze of a building.”

“I know it’s kind of crazy like that, Jess.  It’s great that you could meet me here on such short notice.  You look great.  I see you met Peter already.”

“Met? Is that what you call it?”  I looked at Joe with glint of skepticism.

I told Joe about my “meeting” Peter.  He chuckled and informed me that Peter was a special kind of guy.  He had been born deaf and mute but was never taught to sign properly.  Peter was Joe’s brother.  Boy, was I glad that I hadn’t said anything harsh about Peter.  I really liked Joe’s company and I needed his help in this new investigation.  It was going to be a doozy.  Life wasn’t easy for a woman who just happened to be a detective.  If that wasn’t bad enough, being 100 pounds soaking wet and 5’1″ made it that much harder to get people to take you serious.  This was a really difficult case and Joe had information on the suspect that I needed.  If I play my cards right, I could solve this one and get the promotion for sure.

“So, let’s see what you’ve got, Joe.  I’m all ears.”


This is another fictional story written from a video prompt!  What a fun project this was!  Hope you enjoyed it! Thanks for reading it!

I’ve Been Nominated for the “My Liebster Award”!

 

I’ve been nominated for the My Liebster Award!  I can’t tell you how incredibly thrilled and excited I am to think that someone thinks I’m good enough to warrant this, but I’m so grateful! Thank you so much to Der Sonne folgen at www.reachingthesun.wordpress.com for the nomination!  She is an awesome author as well as motivator to me.  She also writes the most lovely posts.  Please check her out.  She’s been blogging just a bit longer than me but writes so well.   She writes from her vast knowledge of psychology and life.  I recently discovered her wonderful writings and I’m hooked!  You will be, too, I’m sure.

Blogging has been such a blessing these last 3 months.  It’s a way to write and to think I’ve actually gotten to meet some really neat people in some far stretches of the world.  I never knew who would read my daily musings when I started.  Heck, I didn’t even know what I’d write about.  I just knew I had to write.  Now, when I don’t write, I feel like I’ve let people down, other than myself.  This might sound silly, but it motivates me to write.  I provides a connection to others that wasn’t there before.

10 Things About Me

  1. I’m a Registered Nurse.  I worked in Home Health for about 15 years with Mother-Baby, Pediatric Program and loved it but it was time for a change. I’m now working with an adult population as an office nurse in a clinic.  Completely different as I’m in a different office every day.
  2. I am married to my high school sweetheart but it’s my second marriage and his first.  He waited for me all those years!   He is the best husband in the world and would do anything for me.
  3. i have a “zoo” at my house.  We have 3 dogs, 3 cats, 2 hamsters, 4 bunnies and a squirrel presently. It’s a lot of work, but my 14 year old is the biggest animal lover in the world and my husband and I are big softies to small furry creatures.
  4. My mother always wanted my to write a book and now my father is after me to do the same.  I finally started to write it!
  5. I have family scattered across the world.  Family is most important to me.  I just wish we could have a big reunion and make it close to me since it’s so expensive!
  6. I’m a big hockey fan.  I love my St. Louis Blues.  I also love my St. Louis Cardinals baseball.  I love soccer and tennis as well and played on my college tennis team.
  7. I love to read, but when I was young I found it very difficult.  Now that I’m older, even with reading glasses, sometimes the print can be very small and hard to see.  Getting lost in a story is the best escape ever.
  8. The beach and the sunshine are my favorite holidays if not spending them with my family.
  9. Seafood, especially lobster and crab could never get old in my diet.  I could eat them everyday and never tire of them, especially with a glass of Sauvignon Blanc and some veggies.
  10. I love to paint.  I paint furniture and pictures, even though I don’t have any real talent.  I’ve done a few things that I’m really proud of that are displayed in my house.  The furniture painting I’m good at though.

And the Nominees Are…

  1. https://agathachocolats.com/  who is addicted to yummy chocolate and mystery
  2. https://movingtowardsthelight.com/ who has beautiful photography and poetry
  3. https://sunnshhine.wordpress.com/ wonderful poet!
  4. https://scratchesandscribbles.com/ extraordinary  writer of short stories!
  5. https://letthelightinreflections.wordpress.com/ who writes of her love of Christ in and life
  6. https://abercrombieandfitness.wordpress.com/ my fitness.life coach! Such motivation and she has the most amazing abs! She’s also hilarious!
  7. https://kbgarst.wordpress.com/ who writes about the challenges and observations of midlife!
  8. https://trulyunplugged.com/ who writes in such a fabulous way, you just have to read it to appreciate it fully!  Trust me!  She’s awesome!!
  9. https://vladvaida.com/ who always has good advise and good pictures

Liebster Award rules

  • Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog. Try to include a little promotion for the person who nominated you.
  • Display the award on your blog.
  • Write a short description about your favourite blog and include a link to it.
  • Provide 10 random facts about yourself.
  • Nominate 5 – 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, and who have fewer than 1000 followers.
  • List these rules in your post.
  • Inform the blogger the happy news that you nominated them for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so that they can learn more about it (they might not have even heard of it!)
  • Congratulations to the nominees and happy blogging!

 

I’m so truly honored and still can’t believe I get to share this with you guys!  Thank you again!  This has been such a blast for my insomnia tonight! I just wish I could nominate everyone!

When Friends Count

images (16)Lately, I’ve been feeling very down.  I know it’s not unusual for me to get this way but this time it’s been for a multitude of reasons.  If you’ve read any of my other posts, you know I’m a ridiculous worrier.  I worry about things and overthink everything.  Even when writing, I worry if anyone is really interested in the things I write.  Does anyone actually care?  I tend to write from my heart and my life experiences, so it makes me wonder is my life really interesting to anyone besides the people that know me?

I can tell you, it’s been rough lately.  I look at the numbers of those that visit my blogs.  I have the poetry blog and realize that not only do most people not visit it, no one ever comments on it, not even my Facebook friends.  Some of the poetry is good in my opinion and I will admit, some of it is, well, not particularly exciting.  If I’m lucky, I may have 5 or 6 people visit it on a good day.  I feel like quitting.  Then there is this blog.  My main blog. This is where I pour out my heart and soul and tell the world what’s on my mind.  I have a goal.  I have some followers.

images (55)I have those that read my blog and some leave me comments.  One has definitely become my friend.  She lifts my soul when I feel like I should just throw in the towel.  Trulyunplugged is her name on here and she is an amazing author.  I know her as Truly.  Her comments are encouraging and incredible.  She raises my spirit and actually, this morning, she brought tears of joy to my eyes.  I can’t tell you what her friendship means to me.  She lightens my heart, always knows the right thing to say and encourages me to continue writing when I think that no one really wants to read what I have to say.

I have a few friends that I know that always read my blogs that have been friends of mine for years.  They are on facebook and I love when they comment that they’ve enjoyed what they’ve read.  I love making that connection with people.  I love seeing that people have read and liked what they’ve read, but even more that what I’ve written has resonated with them somehow.  It’s all part of being human.  We all need to make connections with others.

So, I guess I’m no different from anyone else, I just feel it more than some, I suppose.  Thank you all for those of you who read my posts.  Thank you for liking and commenting.  I learn more everyday and I will persist.

My Glass Runneth Over

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I have been thinking about all the blessings I’ve been given in my life and I have to tell you, I’ve been truly blessed.   I was adopted when I was 5 days old by the 2 greatest parents a girl could ever ask for.  I don’t have much information about my birth parents and many people might think that to be strange in this society.  To me, I’ve always been an optimist.  My glass is more than half full.  It’s overflowing with the kindness of my parents and my family and friends.  I don’t expect things out of them.  I work hard to raise my kids.  I work hard at having a good marriage.  I realize I am a difficult person to live with, but I’m blessed by those I’m surrounded by.  What more could a girl ask for?

When I saw this quote from Oprah Winfrey, I knew immediately that this was the first quote I would use for my 3 quote challenge.  I love Oprah.  She is a woman who came from nothing and made so much for herself.  She worked incredibly hard and had such determination through such otherwise insurmountable obstacles throughout her life.  I can’t even imagine how she was able to always keep such an optimist and beautiful view of life, but she did.  She has also always been such a generous person, helping those who really needed help, just like Ellen DeGeneres does, as well.  I just admire both of them so much with each of the struggles they have faced, they have done it with dignity, something that so many people seem to lack these days.

I always try to keep my optimistic view of life and never forget the blessings I have in my life.  I may not have everything I would like to have, but I have everything I need.  I have a home to live in and keep my family safe, a car to get around and be hockey mom in, a new job that I will be starting on Monday, which I’m really excited about, food to feed my family, a family that loves me and a husband that I adore.  What more could I ever possibly need?  Of course, I could use more money, a more updated house, a cleaner house, a smaller waistline and extra time in my day, but really those are just desires, not things that are necessary to make me happy.

I can’t say that this is the way I always have seen the world.  I used to think I needed a bigger house and the small waistline to make my life really happy, but I’ve been on a journey, of sorts.  It’s been something that I think many people go through.  I can’t say I’ve ever really been a materialistic person.  My mom always commented on that.  The thing is, I was like most people in that I thought I needed more money to be happier.  I discovered somewhere along the way that it was more time spent with my family that was the most important.

My husband always says that when you are lying on your death bed, you aren’t going to say, “Gee, I wish I’d spent more time at the office”.  He’s absolutely right.  What is it that you really want in life?  For me, it is to be more grateful of the time I have with my kids and my husband.  I think of how my children are growing up and in no time they will be all out of the house and it will just be the two of us.  Just Hubs and me.

When I finally realized this, it dawned on me that no matter how much money I make, it will never really be enough, but the hours I was working at my previous job was tearing my family to bits.  I wasn’t home enough to be a mom and a wife.  I had my own mental breakdown and things got messy for awhile for other reasons totally unrelated.  I became much stronger than I ever imagined I could be.  I realized in the time I had away from work, however, that I needed a job with more flexibility and much better hours.  I start that job on Monday.  I can’t wait.  I’ve never looked forward to starting a new job so much. I still have the trepidation that goes along with starting something new, but I’ll be okay.  It’s just the newness of it all.  I’ll fit in soon enough and then I’ll be grand.

So, this quote of looking at what I have and not what I haven’t got just really struck me.  It reminded me of how truly wonderful my life is.  I have everything I need and really everything I want.  The other things, well, Hubs and I can work on those things.  Those are just icing on the cake of life.  As long as I have him, I can do anything.  He truly is my better half, and yes, he really does complete me.

I Should Be Sleeping

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An empty page just waiting for me!!  Nirvana!

Most people are sleeping at this hour of night.  Well, with the exception of those working night shift or those working evening shift, like I used to.  Regardless, I should be sleeping, but I’m not.  I have to be up and alert in a few short hours and what do you think I’m doing?  Oh, yes, most logically, I’m writing.  I just had to sit up in my bed, grab my laptop, scold the cat for getting on top of the hamster’s cage and write.

Yes, I do realize it’s 2AM, but my brain doesn’t seem to care.  The words just need to come out and be here, on this screen.  I have this compulsion to get the words to leave my brain via my fingertips and write at these very inconvenient times of day (or night).

This is the life that just is for me.  I have this addiction to writing, I suppose is what you might call it.  I just have to get the thoughts out and share them with blogland.  Since starting my blog, I have to tell you that I am humbled by those of you that have followed me and actually take time to read these random thoughts that flow freely onto the computer screen.  I do always write from my heart and I want to take this opportunity to tell you how grateful I am that you, yes, you, the one sitting there looking at your phone or computer screen, perhaps that’s a tablet of some sort, but you never the less, have taken time to get to know me through my blog.

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I should be counting stars or sheep instead of writing!

I guess this is also not only a thank you letter to you, but also a sort of follow up to my previous blog of why I write.  You see, I have to get my thoughts out, regardless of what time it is.  If I waited until morning, like some of the more sane people might, this would be completely different than it is right now.  I read in another blog about why we write that we write because we think and see the world in words.  We are words.  This is true for me.

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The sun will rise and I’ll want to be sleeping, darn it!

I’ll take it one step further and let you in on a secret.  Speaking, I don’t always have the words flowing well, but with my writing, the world of words comes tumbling forth and I don’t stumble on them like I do in person.  I don’t get anxious when I’m writing.  It’s a true blessing for me.  At least I hope I don’t sound stupid when I write.  I always feel rather stupid when I talk, especially to people I don’t know very well.  There is my secret.

Anyway, my lovely readers, I thank you so much for taking the time and reading my blog.  It truly means the world to me.  Just ask my husband!  He’d be glad to tell you.  I’m always looking to see if there are any views on my 2 blogs.  This one always outdoes my poetry page, but I’m still trying to figure out how to make a like button on there.  No one ever leaves me a comment either!  So, if you want to see my subpar poetry, visit sometime.  It’s at http://www.myblogoflife.com and leave me a comment.  I get really, really excited if anyone but my hubby leaves me a comment on there, which no one ever does!!