Feeling Positive and Making Changes

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I love when I feel positive about life.  When I’m more positive, it makes the world around me a more positive place to be.  I can’t say that I always succeed, but when I do, oh boy, it’s a lovely world I’m surrounded by.  When I’m surrounded by negativity, I feel depressed.  That makes it really hard since I suffer from depression as it is.

I always say I’m a work in progress and I truly believe it.  My goal is to become the best person I can be.  This means I have to not only have to believe in myself, I have to be patient and kind to myself and to those around me.  I’ve been working on being more kind to myself now very hard for about a week and a half.  I’m proud to say, it’s going rather well.

Each morning, I get up and tell myself that I’m worth the love that my husband and children show me.  I’m also trying to look for kindness all around me.  That will be a post later this week.  I’m in the Revolution of Kindness which is truly revolutionary to me.  I really want to transform myself from the inside out.  If I can be the best person from the inside, then my family, friends and the world will have the best me possible.

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I think my oldest daughter will hopefully see this transformation the most, as she lives away from home.  I love all of my children so much, but she and I have a bond that is unique to just us.  We are very alike in many ways but also so very different at the same time.  Since she doesn’t live at home, she should be able to see a difference when she comes home.

If you would like to join the Revolution of Kindness please do!  It’s making a difference in my life already and it’s only been a week and a half.  Just click here!

If We Were Having Coffee

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If we were having our weekend coffee today, I’d tell you this has been an eventful week! I had my meeting with my surgeon regarding my pancreatic cyst.  I finally got the results from my biopsy that was taken on April 19th!  Yes, almost a month later!  Can you believe it took that long?  Me either!  The initial results took only a week and they wanted to do more testing.  They called and told me I had many atypical cells which means my cyst was precancerous.  The best means to take care of this is to surgically remove it.  It’s a big cyst.  I’m ready.  Bring it on!

My week was also filled with working with wonderful people in another department of my new place of employment.  As many of you know, I’m a nurse and this past week was nurse’s week.  As this department is very generous, we were fed all week!  This was not so good for my diet, but my belly was kept full and let me tell you, it was very tasty! We had pasta, salad, fruit, baked potatoes,  cookies, doughnuts, sandwiches, breakfast sandwiches, cinnamon rolls, and more!  These people know how to feed their employees well!

I would tell you that it was my son’s last hockey game of this session and my daughter’s last high school Spring Show.  It’s hard knowing that next year, I’ll only have 2 children at home, but also kind of exciting at the same time.  I love knowing that my 2 oldest girls will be pursuing their dreams in college.  Knowing that I have 2 birds that have flown the coop and 2 that are still in the nest is a comforting thought.  I must be doing something right.  I’m proud of my 2 oldest girls.

For now, let’s just sit back and enjoy our Colombian blend coffee with our Creme Brulee creamer.  It’s delicious.  I’ve eaten so much.  I’ll stick to my small omelet for breakfast.  What will you have?

 

A Long Time Ago

20141013_225029A long time ago and far, far away, there lived a beautiful young maiden with golden hair and blue eyes.  She was a lovely child but lonely as she had only an older brother as a companion and not many friends.  She loved music and played piano very well.  She immersed herself in her music which made her different from her family because they enjoyed sports more than music.

Her summers were spent at the pool and playing tennis where she made friends easily with another family where there were other children her age.  In this family, there was another maiden who became her best friend along with her younger brother.  The three played everyday in the pool and spent carefree afternoons together and inseparable.  The golden haired maiden even began spending the night at their home.  A lifetime friendship had been made.  Little did the maiden know that her life would change because of this friendship.

One day, the maiden noticed a raven haired stranger with hazel eyes and the longest eyelashes she had ever seen sitting alone next to the pool.  He had a plaster cast on his leg and crutches next to him.  The look on his face was that of dismay, for anyone could tell he wanted desperately to go into the water with the other children, but was unable to join due to the cast upon his leg.

The maiden could tell that this must be another sibling of her two friends, as they were 2 of 5 children.  She was informed that this was their next older brother, James.  She thought how handsome he was.  His hair was jet black and wavy.  His eyes were lively and alert, and those eyelashes framed those beautiful eyes.  His lips were like rosebuds. She had never been attracted to any boy before like this before.  She was young.  She had plenty of time.  She didn’t give it much thought after that.

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Time went by and the attractive boy eventually was able to join them in the pool.  He started to play with them off and on.  He didn’t always join them, but as time went on, he spent more and more time with the three friends.  When the maiden went to spend the night with her friend, the other maiden, she found herself spending more and more time with James as the years went on.

Eventually, James’ family moved to another kingdom far away.  The maiden was devastated.  By this time, she knew that she loved James and James knew he loved her too.  They continued to write and visit each other often.  They were officially seeing each other by this time.  Years had past since those days at the pool.  They had known each other since James was 12 and the maiden was 10.

Now, they were both in college and the maiden was 19 and James was 21.  Then suddenly, the maiden decided she had had enough. One day, the maiden decided that James no longer loved her because he wouldn’t hold her hand in public or hug her in front of people.  Looking back, that was silly, but hindsight is 20/20.

The maiden dated few others and eventually fell deeply and madly in love with another.  After 3 years, she married.  Another 3 years and a child was born.  13 years after saying “I do”, however, and her marriage was over.  She was devastated and alone with 3 little girls.

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She had always maintained her friendship with James.  It was easy to do because he was so easy to talk to and such a good person.  Their relationship was based on respect and love. There had never been sex to complicate things.  James had never married because the maiden was his one and only true love.

When out to lunch one day, the maiden asked James if he would consider dating her again.  He laughed and said he couldn’t believe she had to ask. They were married the next year and have been married ever since.  A beautiful, bouncing, baby boy was added to the family the year after they made their vows to each other.  This is their happily ever after.  Sometimes dreams do come true.


This is part of Finish the Sentence Friday.  The host is always Kristi at www. findingninee.com where you can find the other fabulous links to complete this week’s sentence, “A long time ago and far, far away…”

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A Never Ending Love

Gently, he took her hand in his

As he kissed her petal soft cheek.

She gazed into his deep, hazel eyes.

Her blue eyes slightly dampened from tears.

She felt as though she had failed once more.

He comforted her as he always did.

He told her how perfect and beautiful she was.

How her eyes sparkled when she talked of their life.

He told her how kind, how thoughtful to others she was,

How she touched those who ached,

How everyone loved her, except herself.

The tears softly flowed like drops of rain down her cheeks

As she listened to each word he uttered.

“I’ll love you, my dear, till the seas are all dry.”

And knew she would be his forever.